[00:00.000] 作词 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin
[00:14.24]Looking back now I didn't know what it was supposed to be
[00:17.90]And it's like raising kids man
[00:19.77]If you weren't raised you don't know how to raise you know
[00:22.81]I just did the best that I could with them
[00:24.46]Because they know f**kin' well I love them
[00:28.78]But I didn't do the best I could
[00:30.94]I didn't know what the f**k I was doing
[00:34.22]I didn't
[00:37.92]I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket
[00:42.65]And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old
[00:46.50]She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution
[00:50.75]Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd
[00:55.64]I later had an evil stepmother
[00:58.04]Who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother
[01:02.26]Growing up without one had long lasting influence
[01:05.66]I didn't fully understand until much later in life
[01:10.11]It bled into my relationships with family
[01:12.93]And those I had became romantically involved with
[01:17.02]Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off
[01:20.56]Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear
[01:25.04]But it was also totally subconsious
[01:30.11]Looking back is a b***h isn't it